or Life at the Bottom of the Heap

Just like the blog itself this name was either a good idea or a bad one. I'm your average disability benefit claiment, 30, married, A-levels and an HND. I worked and studied till I became to ill to do it anymore and was forced to join the so called 'underclass'. It's a horrible unfair description - the number of times I have heard the words 'Well I didn't mean people like you! In all honesty most ARE people like me, this blog won't change the world but I hope to let you into the hidden secret parts of mine that most people ignore. Hope you stay along for the ride because as bumpy as it has been so far - with the present government it's going to get much much worse.

Sunday 27 June 2010

Thank God for the Guardian

Whatever your political persuasion right now - Thank God for the Guardian - here is an article they have published of personal accounts of the disabled, their carers and their 'help' from the state.


It's not the Daily Mail but if you read the comments there is no talk of scroungers, the underclass, fraud or 3km flat screen telly's. There (so far) isn't even one mention of the word BRAVE! We need more of this in the mainstream media - personal accounts will help peel back the propaganda that's currently being used to beat us with.

I have seen more of the disability blogs referred to recently as well - we have to make a dint eventually. I can't bear to think about what will happen if we don't. It's like everyone is being downgraded in terms of how affected they are by their disability - unfortunately changing the language or the goal posts doesn't actually change the barriers faced or the level of pain (physical or mental) a person feels.

I was going to post sooner - but my elbow decided to refuse to stay in the socket and so I've been unable to type very much for the last couple of days. It's not back in yet - but it's better than it was enough to write this. Hope to be back at this again soon.

Thursday 24 June 2010

Who Am I

There is quite a bit in the main body about who I am - but I can tell you a little more about who I think I am:

I am someone who very much wants to work, who is creative and loving. I am someone who has dreams and ambitions and wishes - most are quite moderate though some are a bit pie in the sky - but who doesn't have those. I'm someone who enjoys swimming and music and singing and I love the rain, especially in summer. I love a good cup of coffee and cooking fresh food using fresh ingredients - though someone else has to be my hands in the kitchen these days. I want a family, but I want to support that family as much as possible - or at least have enough support that my husband can.

I am also someone who is increasingly worried about the misinformation about people with disabilities, who they are, their benefit entitlement or lack of, their ability to work and not and the general idea that anyone who cannot support themselves even for a short time is undeserving of anything.

I want a lot of things and I think a lot of people would say I want too much, but I feel I want just enough. Just enough to live and love and learn and earn, isn't that what anyone wants?